| 27 : 45 Now from the sixth
hour there was darkness over all the land until
the ninth hour.
27 : 46 And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with
a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?
that is, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken
me?
27 : 47 And some of them stood there, when they
heard it, said, This man calleth Elijah.
27 : 48 And straightway one of them ran, and took
a sponge, and filled it with vinegar, and put
it on a reed, and gave him to drink.
27 : 49 And the rest said, Let be; let us see
whether Elijah cometh to save him.
27 : 50 And Jesus cried again with a loud voice,
and yielded up his spirit.
27 : 51 And behold, the veil of the temple was
rent in two from the top to the bottom; and the
earth did quake; and the rocks were rent;
-- Matthew Chapter 27 :
45-51 ASV
[The Angel saith] Beware, therefore, O thou
who art appointed to understand the secret of
the Outermost Abyss, for in every Abyss thou must
assume the mask and form of the Angel thereof.
Hadst thou a name, thou wert irrevocably lost.
Search, therefore, if there be yet one drop of
blood that is not gathered into the cup of Babylon
the Beautiful, for in that little pile of dust,
if there could be one drop of blood, it should
be utterly corrupt; it should breed scorpions
and vipers, and the cat of slime
And I said unto the Angel: Is there not one appointed
as a warden?
And he said: Eloi, Eloi, lama sabacthani.
Such an ecstasy of anguish racks me that I cannot
give it voice, yet I know it is but as the anguish
of Gethsemane. And that is the last word of the
Aethyr. The outposts are passed, and before the
seer extends the outermost Abyss.
-- Liber 418 : Vision and
the Voice, 11th Aethyr
The dark night occurs after considerable advancement
toward higher consciousness. Indeed, the dark
night usually occurs like an initiation before
one of these special seekers is admitted into
regular relationship with higher consciousness.
The dark night also occurs to those who do not
seek relationship but immersion or unity in the
higher consciousness. While the term dark night
of the soul is used broadly, its general meaning
— in the field of higher consciousness —
is a lengthy and profound absence of light and
hope. In the dark night you feel profoundly alone.
The dark night is about being fully present
in the tender wounded emptiness of our own souls.
It's not about turning away from the pain but
learning to rest in it. Rather than distracting
ourselves from the simple darkness at out core,
we sit with it, paying close attention. And opening
our hearts to all that is left, which is love.
The road to the divine encounter is not
for the weekend adventurer. ... The dark night
of the soul is for the seeker so on fire with
love for God that she will get to him by any means
necessary.
This includes being willing to plunge into
the abyss of the Unknown, the Unknowable. It is
a path for the spiritually desperate.
-- Introduction to St.
John of the Cross - DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL, by
Mirabai Starr
A similar state exists with respect to his
cabalistic work. He continues to make elaborations
on his synthetic scheme, but finds that new additions
and expansions decrease in frequency. At the same
time he becomes aware that there are aspects of
existence that cannot be fit into his present
scheme without destroying it utterly and starting
over from scratch; he doesn't know what these
aspects are, exactly, but he can sense them looming
over the horizon.
And his finely coordinated Self seems to be spinning
its wheels in most of its endeavors. He can still
act out the functions of the Exempt Adept, but
gets less pleasure and fulfillment out of doing
so. He can't get a grip on things, on a way to
use this great Self of his; he feels like he is
trying to act in a frictionless environment.
The reason for all this is that the Adept is looking
for something that isn't there -- that is, a continuation
of the path as he has experienced it so far, with
its blinding revelations, ecstatic highs, encompassing
archetypes, etc. There just isn't any more of
that, above his current level; such things are
characteristic of the human-accessible magickal
realms, not the transcendent realms. But he doesn't
know that.
Needless to say, the Adept in this situation is
a pretty miserable character. Not all the time;
usually he can go about his business in the character
of the Adept without any difficulty. But periodically
the futility of it all hits, and the despair and
desperation can reach incredible levels of intensity.
What he wants, more than anything, is to get OUT,
without seeing any way of doing so. Like the mythical
Christ on his cross, he calls out to his god,
and gets no answer. All he can do is suffer alone.
But even despair has its limits; when nothing
one does can have any effect on the situation,
one eventually just gives it up. He gets beyond
hope of anything happening, beyond despair that
nothing is happening, and just lives life as it
comes, without any particular plans or expectations,
without any desire beyond the moment. He goes
on because that is what he does, and for no purpose.
This whole process can go on for a long time.
In my own case, the period of increasing despair
lasted over five years, the period of "just
living" lasted another five.
-- The Illusion of the
Abyss , Benjamin Rowe
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